blogging and reasons

It seems to me that when you actually make time to sit down and write a blog post you can't think of anything to say, yet during the rest of the week there are a hundred different incidents or thoughts which you could write on.

Sometimes it's that your mind goes completely blank, there's things there yet as soon as you open up that web browser it's like it's suddenly empty. White perhaps. There's not even anything at the back of your mind, or even an annoying tick-tock or drip-drip sound - just nothing.

Sometimes it's that there's plenty of things in your mind but it's like they're zooming around so fast (if you could enter them into the speedway you'd be a winner) that you don't actually know what any of the individual thoughts are, all you can recognize is that there's something there - actually, lots of somethings there but you have no idea what they actually are.

Sometimes it's that there's so many things in your head that you just can't pin one down, make a choice, decide. As soon as you do though, you can't think of anything to write about it because all that's in your head is all the other things (better things) that you could be writing about - crazy!

Sometimes it's that you know what you want to write about, sort of, but suddenly you just completely forget how to speak English - and it's my only language! All that comes out is abstract sounds and gobble-dee-gook.

Sometimes it's that you can think of plenty of things that you'd love to share with people but somehow as soon as you write it down, it just doesn't sound the same - it's not as funny, or interesting, or profound, as it was in your memory, your head.

And when any of these things happen you suddenly don't feel like writing a blog just now, yet at the same time you really want to, because part of you is telling you that you can't, and/or that's what you're supposed to be doing now!

But then again, while true, these are also just excuses (placing blame) and the frustrated ravings of a blogger, when all I should really be saying is... 'sorry for not writing for a while now'. Let's keep ourselves honest.